From what you've written, I can't tell whether your friend is trying to emotionally blackmail you or not. She may have just been telling you how she felt. Also, just because she is feeling suicidal doesn't mean that she's actually going to kill herself.

I think your feeling of responsibility for her is admirable, but probably isn't good for her, and I think you know this but don't know what else to do. I can see that. It would be good if there is another person who knows her, friend or family, who will take on the responsibility to keep an eye on her.

I was in a situation somewhat similar to this once. It was over a break-up. I wasn't suicidal, but I was extremely upset - my emotions were so strong that it felt like I was being ripped apart. I couldn't sleep and I cried constantly.

The guy in the situation was like you - worried about me and still wanted to be friends. I wanted to stay friends, too, and we did, but looking back now, I would have healed a lot faster if he had completely disappeared from my life.

How emotionally stable was your friend before this happened? Do you know if she has any other episodes like this in her past?

When you say that there's no therapist available until May, do you mean a particular therapist, or no therapist anywhere near where you live?

I ask because it seems like this woman needs to get some help as fast as possible, even if it involves a visit to the emergency room.

Sometimes if you go to your primary care doctor and tell them what's going on, they can help you to get an appt. for mental health care faster. Even a gynecologist can help sometimes.

I hope you are able to extract yourself from this situation. I don't see that you have any reason to feel guilty and you are behaving better than 99% of the people I know would.