I'm starting to deny myself the time to cry. It happened on the 1st and again today. I'll shed a couple tears, and then that's it - I hold back the rest. It feels so pointless to cry, especially when you're doing it alone, with no one around to care about your pain. There is no comfort in it. None. It does not make me feel any better. It exacerbates my headaches... It reminds me that no one will comfort me... that I'm alone... There's no good reason to do it.