The loneliness is really hitting me hard this evening... hard to cope. I really don't have anyone to sit with me or comfort me in this difficult time. Which only amplifies the feeling. Also, I am paranoid my cat is going to die soon. She's old... about as old as me (18) which is elderly for a cat. For the past few days she has been feverish and her nose dry and warm. We cannot take her to a vet. I've tried to help her by sitting her in front of the fan to cool her off, which I guess helped her some, because she stayed there for a while and her nose was wet again after that... but now it's back to warm and dry, and her head feels really overheated also. She keeps going back and forth like that. I'm scared of losing her. I know it has to happen some day, but this would be the worst possible time. She's been the only one to be loving and affectionate towards me through all this loneliness... if I lost her now, I wouldn't know what to do with myself. Besides cry. But maybe I'm too paranoid...