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Old Apr 03, 2015, 04:54 PM
Starks518 Starks518 is offline
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Originally Posted by manicbeara013 View Post
In the end, I learned a huge lesson of self worth and standards. Also, I assume him that personality disorder can't be helped without coming to terms with his behaviors. It seemed like the tug of war game... it's all about control and testing the boundaries, like how deplorable can he be at one moment and then "win" me back in the next.

I might be a lot of things, but I am not someone's personal "plaything" to use and abuse.
A lot of this sounds familiar as far as how the relationship between us started, the things I was being told about her only long term prior relationship where she painted herself out to be a victim, if it seemed like I was pulling away I was barraged with texts/phone calls "I'm coming over" when I was simply sleeping, major insecurity, loving me so intensely like she said she never had before or ever felt from anyone else, learning about her past history of cutting and very dangerous behaviors, a large amount of friendships lost due to mean things she would say, etc. As I said, I guess it was my turn to have all of those mean and "cut off" behaviors happen to me. I suppose it was only just a matter of time.

I am doing my best to realize it wasn't my fault, the things she said are complete BS made up in her mind, and I shouldn't be so depressed about it. It didn't help that a week and a half after the relationship ended she started an online dating profile and posted 3 pictures of herself that I took of her (one on my birthday and 2 others on trips we were on...that REALLY hurt and felt intentional). Saying she wanted nothing to do with me then liking all of my best friends posts on a social media site then claiming it wasn't intentional. Now this behavior at work begins. I'm hoping as time passes she moves away from this phase of seeking attention when she is in my presence but I can only HOPE. And hope that seeing me with me ignoring her doesn't make her miss me in any way and attempt to initiate contact again.
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