I think making a list of concerns and visiting a professional would be the way to go. So far, I'm not hearing any symptoms describing marked episodes of mania and/or depression. How are your sleep cycles?

I know for me and many others, marijuana use can actually contribute to anxiety, not like a paranoia during the high, but uncomfortable anxiety when not high while it's a habit. This sounds more like what you might be experiencing. You have an expensive habit you said - for me I had to get off of the drugs and experience slightly worse anxiety in the short term to find a real solution long term.

If you do seek medical treatment, this will be an important consideration for your treatment.

Best of luck, welcome to PC Bipolar Land, and please keep posting.

moogs