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Old Apr 03, 2015, 07:27 PM
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Originally Posted by Bill3 View Post
I think that your interpretation of the poem makes sense and is valid.

This is exciting to think about, that you could move in the direction of having less need to control everything. What is an example of something in your environment right now that you could let be and not overly control?

I would suggest that you try letting be with one or two things in your environment and then type/write down what you are feeling about this change and how much you will need to actively cope with any distressing emotions that arise--versus how much you could accept, ACT-style, that these emotions are present and not need to actively cope with them or try to change them

Right, it is exciting, it would be so nice to just do something spontaneously for once and not because "I have to".
I'll try your suggestion and let you know how it goes. I'm going to try to be less of a pain with the nursing staff, having to know every lab value, vital sign etc and maybe stop harassing my physicians about getting out of here so I can pack the "right" clothes for treatment. I'll let you know how I'm feeling about the rest of it later, I have to go do physical therapy. (I get to walk around the ward twice, but hey, it's the little things, right?)
I'll talk to you later.
Thanks for keeping in touch, it's really helping me view things in a more positive light

So I ended up getting septic and having to go to the ICU and I...let's just go with I need to practice being less of a control freak. I didn't handle it well. I was in general a pain and I pretty much acted like a four year old so I'm kind of frustrated with myself. I really wanted to handle situations like this better. It's strange, maybe because it's so ingrained, but when they told me things weren't looking great, I automatically switched into this freak who had to control everything and know everything and be "in charge" of everything when in reality I had no control over anything and I still really don't. I don't know, maybe I just need to practice letting things go. I don't know. Maybe starting with the smaller things? IDK. I'm just frustrated in general...
Thanks for this!
Bill3