i have fallen into a bottomless pit filled with twinkies and candy bars and other poisonous foods..... I ate a salad for dinner, walked away, kept telling myself I was full because it was a rather large salad, only to find myself 20 mins later scavaging for something else. My appetite is un real. I know its depression, perhaps once I get my emotions under control I can take control of my diet. I see my pdoc on Monday and I will share with him the horrific time I am having with food. The bad part? I feel horrible, absolutely horrible after eating it. I want to stick my finger down my throat and bring it all back up, and I probably would if I didn't get a nose bleed and headache after....there is a silver linning after all. I have tried a little dancing in the house when I am alone, and water does help, but when I lay down it sounds like there is an ocean in my stomach.

You guys are great and I wish you all much success with your eating habbits, weight loss, and exercise.