Thanks. Yeah, I guess I had just hoped that by the time I hit a healthy weight, I might have enough energy to make it through the day like a normal person. Other than the hypothyroidism, my recent checkup and blood work all looked good. I hope that once my thyroid is under control, I will feel better and have energy.

Sometimes I'm not sure if I'm exhausted because I'm depressed or if I'm depressed because I'm exhausted. All I know is I want to be productive. For the longest time, I just thought I was lazy. But, that's not it...laziness is when I just feel like I'd rather be watching TV. What I experience most of the time is a desire to do the things I need to do and get stuff accomplished and live a normal life, but just end up losing track of the day and getting nothing done because I move so slowly and just lack the energy to get much done aside from eating a few meals, taking a walk, and taking a shower.

There are all these goals I have in life and things that I want to do, and I just keep on watching them slip further and further away because it seems like I move at the rate of a snail, and it takes a massive effort just to get myself to do anything.

I guess, now that I'm in reasonable shape, and the doctor thinks I'm healthy other than the thyroid problem, the exhaustion must be coming either from depression or hypothyroidism. So, I guess I'm at least narrowing down the list of possible reasons I'm living my life passively.