Ugh. It's been about 4 weeks since this depression set in since my panic attack/meltdown. I just feel so lost and my self-esteem has shot down than harder before. I just feel so spaced out when I go out to work, I even missed a few days of classes because I just couldn't keep up with any of it. I've lost my keys twice, which makes me feel even more frustrated at myself, and I'm juggling three part-time jobs to get me through college. Ugh. I graduate this December and I'm so ready to be done with school for at least a few years.

People have been noticing my change in mood lately. I appear drained and agitated constantly. I have really bad road rage, or I'm just constantly blanking out. I just can't stop thinking about the past...

I just sought out a new Psychologist who will provide me good therapy to break my old habits with spending, smoking, and unstructured. Next Friday...cannot seriously just wait.