Oh well this is my lucky week - my son who has steadfastly stayed away refusing to talk or even acknowledge i need/want help suddenly swooped in and tried to execute a fast involuntary commitment on me - but luckily he failed. As grief stricken as I have been that would have been the final blow. I might have taken that last final step - but he failed - he also simultaneously stole my son from me and left me with a cold and callous stranger I don't recognize.