You are not alone!!!! You have us
Sometimes you can be on the wrong medication and it makes you feel worse.... sometimes you have to feel worse to appreciate feeling better. (learning that one right now myself) Yelling and screaming and crying is normal!!!!!
You matter!!!!!!!!!!!! you are a precious resource, there is only one of you and no one can take your place. I'm inspired by you taking a walk with your dog... I should do that. Walking helps me when I feel like crap.... But there are other things out there that can help. Don't give up!! talk with your pdoc and T about this, it really does help.