it's the overwhelming feeling, and I'm sure nobody cares at this point if I do i.. it's like I'm so sure I want to go ahead and go though with it, the only thing that holds me back is the pain it "could" cause... I feel like like going though with it...I'm not depressed. I'm not I think it's my calling... it is my calling, I just have to go ahead and do it, and not be scared about it... but I am scared about it.
there's nothing... we are all just all blank and we can't stand it I'm just scared because? it's always because I have to do this its all I'm good for