T and/or CM,

I don't know what to do. Crisis didn't call to check in, not yesterday and not today. CM, did you request it like you said you would? Are they just not calling for some reason? What do i do now?

I'm a bit scared 'cos i've been struggling a lot with flashbacks and anxiety and the contact might be helpful so things don't continue getting worse, but i'm unsure what i need and i'm worried now that they don't want to deal with me.

I keep doing all the things i'm supposed to, but sometimes it's just not enough. Feel small and frightened and not always 'here', but just thinking about calling - especially when i don't know why they haven't called me - is making me anxious. Maybe i'll just try to tough it out a while longer?

I wish one of you was around to help me figure out what to do.