Been trying today. Decided to drink...though thst is bad idea, but decided to take that road. Sometimes...mostly, i do the other bad self soothe of eating to feel better. These ate not what T means. Meditation is good. Meditation that makes you fall asleep. Music used to for me but not anymore. Though i do listen to those music on youtube to help sleep and depression and those kinds.

I will admit here as a grown woman, i have a doll that have a meaning. I hug that because there is no body else who hugs me. If they did that research and gave those monkeys sonething furry to hug and it made them feel better, why not lonely me when there is no one.