After reading some reviews and all of the side effects of clozapine I'm am officially scared off. It's just not worth it. It seems like it's more for people with chronic hallucinations anyway, and I only have hallucinations once a week or every couple of months and they never have bothered me. It seems like a last ditch effort drug, not something to be toyed around with.

My Geodon does a fine job of keeping my bipolar episodes short and not that severe and that's all I ask for from a med, I want to slowly whittle away at the other meds like the perphenazine and the topiramate and the propranolol, and I think I'll be in a better place as far as clarity and cognitive function and weight loss. I don't think I need to take this drastic a step. I don't like that my psychiatrist is pressuring me in this way.

I don't need to be drowsy or gaining any more weight, or fainting, or having orthostatic blood pressure, or taking 4 years off my life, or having a deadly bone marrow problem, or having seizures. All to get rid of a couple of harmless hallucinations? Psychosis is not my main problem. Not by any means. In fact, I think my hallucinations are kind of interesting when they happen, which is rarely anyway. I'm going to keep saying no to my psychiatrist. And if he gives me no other choice, I'm going to ask to be switched to someone else.