Hi. I decided to move. It's going to take me to a place that i will be alone and how to get a job and money ..etc...is causing me to be scared shitless and depressed. I decided to move back to that state because my dog is there. I want to be around her, but doing that i will be going where i would be alone most of the time. I am having a hard time after i made this decision. I have not come up with a plan. Most of my moves, i have not come up with a plan. I have vague ideas. You know that is how it goes. You really don't know until you are there what might happen. This place i am at, i came here a year ago. There was a issue but i came here because of the love of my friend to help me and it was the only option for me. I think it was good move. I learned a lot this year. I was given roof over my head and food and lots of emotional support.

Now, the decision, i made is going to be a struggle. I don't want this. I want to feel it is an adventure. I want to feel it is start of new and wonderful exoerience. I am tired of living in fear.

Please help me someone. I know i posted in the depression section. I don't want to feel horrible anymore. I am going because my dog don't have that much time on earth and i want to be around her. I was not able to give her a home. I was not able to after i left to look for a job and then have her with me,

Please help me someone. How do i get to feel better and have strength? How do those people who do it have it?

Please help me move forward with strength.