I made it....felt so bad I really had my doubts.
Talked to T and really spilled my guts.I admitted to SH and destructive thoughts......everything.
I really thought by admitting all that that I would of ended up sectioned ,but it didnt.My T of course asked for details that I did not intend to share but I was honest and hope it helped to improve the trust Im trying to build.
I know that Im still in a bad way but at least I feel a little less burdened.
2 weeks till psychiatrists app.....hope I can get my meds straightened out.

Thanks all for your encouragement and true understanding.
I really do feel safe sharing my thoughts here.