Someone similar story...thought I would share so you knew your were not alone...

My father left when I was 10-12 years old...never came back..he died in 2005...

Out of all of this I vowed that I would never ever abandon my children and that I would be the father to them that he never was to me...

This father day is sad and happy...sad that I really had no father and happy to know my children know what a real father is...