I tend to over think everything as well, I can't be smooth, feel like I ruin what could be a good time. I find it extremely hard, almost impossible to trust in a relationship. I finally did trust and open up, but my ex left me for another girl. I feel like my anxiety jut makes me impossible to around, I'm just not fun.

losinghope: As far as the physical part, hopefully he is aware of your anxiety and is understanding, if so, you two can slowly ease into it. He can sort of lead you. You say, you can't even kiss him, does he kiss you? Maybe first try to just kiss back.