i lived all my life believing that death was the only solution. spent over 30 years wanting to die. i begged and pleaded for death and tried it a few times. but then that magic wand hit me over the head and my life entirely changed. i have a purpose today.

i never thought people would care. i thought people would understand. i have come to find out that is not true. i would have really hurt people.

i know it is difficult to believe, but we do care here, just as Chaotic said. If you ever need to talk you can PM any community liaison and we would be happy to listen.

if you arent seeing a therapist, please seek one out. they really do help. take care