Hi. I hope this is allowed here. Um, okay, obviously, I'm new here. I have not been officially diagnosed with BP, but for the past, oh, eight - ten years (since about my sophomore year in high school), I've been dealing with mood swings, highs and lows, ups and downs ... you name it, I've dealt with it. I didn't ever think that it could be BP.

But lately my big dark hole of depression seems to be ever-present, suffocating even, so I started doing some research, and that's how I found this forum. Everything you guys are talking about is exactly what I've been going through. I'm making an appointment with a psychiatrist as soon as possible, because I am tired of not being in control of my emotions. Is there anything that I should expect? I've never seen a psychiatrist before, so I'm a little worried.

Thanks.