This is my second without my dad. I was still numb last year.

It seems like the media just won't leave it alone. I had a meltdown last year after father's day. I had that one weekend, and the auction for my father's stuff the next weekend (he didn't have a will). Had to go to intensive outpatient therapy for three weeks and take time off work.

I just want to pretend like it doesn't exist. I miss him so much that my heart just aches for him. So many things have happened that I would have called him for advice on.