That's the thing kaliope. I already talked to him and wrote a loooong letter and finished it about a month and a half ago. I hid it and haven't looked at it ever since. It helped take thoughts and feelings out of my system but the dreams are still here. I actually had one last night. And I wish I could just talk to him. He's the one who decided to stop being my friend, he's the one who's moving on. I should move on too