I just got like really really really hurt (emotionally) by someone. I don't get why people act a certain way if they don't feel it, really, especially knowing how I do feel. I know that doesn't make senses, but the point is I am in immense pain, and I really want to cut myself, but I promised the one person who knows that I do it that I would try to stop, so here I am, trying to stop. I just need something to get past how horrible I feel in this moment. It doesn't really feel like writing any of this out is helping at all.