Auralia, Ruftin has given good advice. Can you do something kind to yourself? Cuddle a soft animal, eat chocolate, do some art? I haven't broken my habit yet and it's so hard, the first one is the easiest to resist however hard, it is your choice and you do have a choice, no one will make you do it and no one will do it to you. Someone helped me choose well this evening and I hope you will be able to choose well too. from the bottom of my heart