I am having lots of angry CPTSD thoughts today. I think they are starting to affect my health. Sometimes, I get so upset that I can't breathe. My cardiologist had me take a nuclear stress test recently. I had a hard time breathing. I know that I've gained weight and had to cut back on exercising due to a very cold winter and painful arthritic feet. I am more out of shape than ever. The nuclear stress test was inconclusive and to be certain the doctors there recommended a procedure where a dye is injected into my bloodstream. I have this test on Thursday. If they find a blockage then they will immediately conduct a procedure to clear it up and I will have to stay overnight in the hospital.

I saw today that there is a new light treatment for PTSD. My apartment is dark (it faces northwest) and often cold. Maybe I need to move to a brighter apartment and climate.