((Rainy))
I've not had an experience quite like that but there are some similarities to emotional flashbacks that I've had. I certainly recognise the fear and the not wanting people to be cross with me. My T said that there are lots of ways of looking at things, different models psychologists use, something I felt was helpful was that the little girl part of me was ready to process some of the memories and the adult part of me was able to help her. Once I found that kind of perspective, I found it rather less frightening. T was very careful to make sure I felt in control all the time during sessions.
Grounding is a good thing to practise, also self soothing techniques. Be gentle with yourself, and hopefully things will get themselves sorted out soon.

Bluegrey