im going to try to goto my doctor next week and get a checkup for diabetes because even though ive lost weight ive been having weird symptoms and my sisters been telling me things that have been freaking me out about diabetes. ever since i was told i was borderline diabetic a few years ago ive been freaking out every few months and every time i have to take these antipsychotics.

thats why i try so hard to lose weight. thats mainly why i try so hard to lose weight and eat right. im so afriad to get diabetes ever since what i was told by this doctor. and it runs so heavily in my family. like im deathly afraid. like honest to god. i just wanna cry.i almost cried on the phone making the appt. my voice was shaky.

idk...
like ive been getting tingling in my hands and arms. but ive had that before. and i keep thinking its like somewhat carpel tunnel-ish but idk. like you never know. especially since ive already been borderline diabetic ...i fear diabetic neuropathy. im just so scared...
plus some other symptoms.