Thanks for being honest with me. That takes a lot of guts to be that honest, but in a nice way. I am a bit upset and hurt at how I've been treated by other people in the past, so I guess that I do tend to assume the worst in other people at times.

I try not to do that though. I don't get why some people would continue to initiate contact and calls and then agree to get together, and then cancel plans consistently if they no longer have an interest in being friends with that person. To me, that's mean and rude. I'd rather just have people flat out tell me that things aren't working out or not contact me at all. Confusing people and giving them mixed messages is just well, confusing. Not everyone is good at taking hints. What you said did make sense.

Honestly though, I don't think that I make unreasonable demands of other people's time. If someone told me to not call them at a certain time, or if they're to busy to talk right now, I wouldn't get upset at them for that. I have given all of my friends space when they asked for space, or for whenever they were going through a hard time. Likewise, I treated them with respect and I was always honest with them, so I expected the same in return. If they didn't want to hang out with me at times, then they should have said so instead of making silly excuses at times. I'd rather be ignored than lied to.

I was always there for them too. So to expect them to be there for me too at least half the time isn't to much to ask for, right? Friendships should be a two way street, and not so one sided. I guess that maybe I've just been trying to hard or maybe I'm just making friends who don't have the time to be a good friend, or who know how to be in a balanced friendship, and not a one sided one. Idk.

Anyways, I have some good news now. I met a new lady from a meetup group and we have a few things in common. I won't make the same mistakes again with her. I hope that she can be the right kind of friend for me and that I won't always be the one doing all of the calling and the emailing. I waited for her to text me back last time although it took her 3 days to respond to me. I thought that she was blowing me off at first which upset me as I got no answer. Then I found out that she was sick and we did end up hanging out with each other.

So I'm really trying not to take things to personally and to wait for other people to get back to me when they can and not expect as much of people anymore. I guess that I need to lower my expectations. Idk. Should I do that? Whatever happens, I'll just try my best to be as nice as possible, but direct when someone does end up hurting my feelings. I guess that I was a bit harsh with my former friend and that I ended up upsetting her to much this time. I wasn't trying to be mean about the things that I said, but I guess that they came across that way to some people.

I did feel as if she was doing the slow fade with me for awhile. It's hard to say for sure since she was going through a rough period for awhile. I guess that we weren't' meant to be friends forever as I'm more direct and upfront than she was most of the time, and she's the type who'd rather hint at things or just flat out avoid situations that made her uncomfortable most of the time, so we weren't the best friend match in that regards.