Dear T,
My plan of purposely trying to be late for my session, doesn't quiet work when you text me and tell me you are running late and that I should take my time getting there.. Damn it! lol.. Thanks, though.. I see what you were doing there with telling me you were running late and I appreciate that.
Also, I think you are doing a great job with my therapy. It kind of made me sad a bit when I asked why I wasn't getting better when you blamed yourself. I know that there are things that I should be doing to get better that I am have been afraid of doing. I guess it is good practice for you to question if there is something different you could do, something you could change. Just know that I am thankful that I ended up with you as my T. Thank you for seeing my progress this week, even if it was a little and even after admitting to SI and the same ideations. I think we are a good team!
I am so sick of living like this, I think I have hit my rock bottom.. It is time for me to get better and it is time to try stuff I haven't been willing to try in the past. Ugh.. scary!

See ya next week!