The repercussions of being DID may make pnurse have to put me on mandatory work restriction (but not permanent). She doesn't have to report this because the child wasn't hurt and didn't realize there was any danger. Pnurse has also been worried about our driving... She'd best not try to take my license! I'm still a safe driver, if a bit more reckless (just more like everyone else now).
Our system has been breaking down further and with the med changes (I think) our "inner filter" is crumbling.
Thursday, our student put her arm again in our personal space and was nearly bitten. 10 does snap at any intrusion. Adults move. The child didn't. Our lip brushed the child's arm @_@ you can imagine how upset I am. I would never, EVER hurt a child. I know 22 doesn't like kids, and 10 is partly feral, but still. This has me really rattled.
Pnurse talked dr letters to change or end my work status, but I told her there's no other thing to be assigned to- I'm an independent contractor. There's only tutoring children. And in a year contract. :/
I talked about options to get through the end of the school year: medication change; have 10 work one-on-one with a coach; sit across from the child instead of next to her so she'd be out of reach... Pnurse said she'd have to seek supervision on this... The consequences of a bite would put me in jail. I'm scared. I just kinda got promoted (thanked) and was given more hours and praise. This would look so bad. Yet safety first....
I'm trying to plan and sent the following text to pnurse:
"Outlining a plan to work with 10: using pictures and training about not biting children ever; how children can't hurt us ever again, how we're in an adult body. How really no one needs to be bitten unless we are physically attacked. To use words. Making a booklet to work with daily and often with her. Already she uses the chant "I'm gonna be a little girl all the way home!" from Wolf Children (anime) and work on being human. We're all scared, they're all sorry to upset me so much and promise to do all I ask and all you say to keep our job until at least the end of school if poss or at least give a month's notice."
In that movie, a booklet was drawn about teaching the wolf children (descendants of werewolves) how to not bully other animals when they were in wolf form and why. I am going to do the same since my friend gave us that movie for 10. And even tho I am/was Observer who is now Kiya, I know she that is me was working to be Alpha Wolf...so I must carry on that legacy. I wish she were here. I don't know where she went. I wish old t were here. I said that to pnurse today and she answered "So do I..."
22 keeps telling me I should have kept my mouth shut. But I do need help with this. Biting the child would be horrid. So would jail.

Scared....