It's upsetting on so many levels.
I've worked with kids for some 25 years or more. I'm great with them and they love me. This is a new behavior (or is seeping out?) and is different because it's a one on one setting. I've done lots of other kinds of work, but I keep going back to working with kids because of the DID. I know I'm older than them (all of me); I even like working with pre-teens.
But I'd rather die than hurt a kid. It's also complicated. Hate that. I DO NOT want to risk hurting the child. And I trust my pnurse. And... I don't want to lose my job; I've got nothing to go to, being an independent contractor. Tho, I'm thinking a filing job where I'm not around humans is a safe bet right now.
Really scared. This is new territory.