Last week I was in very bad place emotionally and thinking seriously about SUI. T threatened to hospitalize me and our interaction was really stress and traumatic for me. I got really angry at t and accused him of ambushing me and only being interested in covering his butt. When I saw him later in week for another check-in, I was seething with anger and said I wasn't sure we had any more work to do together because I felt so betrayed by him. It was obvious during our session that he was frustrated with me. He told me that the reason he hadn't told me that he cared about me earlier in the week was because he'd told me 100x and if I didn't know by then. . .By the end of the session, things were a little better, but I could tell he still felt angry/defensive--whatever.

Before this happened, we had a great relationship and he'd never seen me even slightly irritated. It's hard for me even to say the words, "I'm angry." I'm afraid he won't forgive me or we won't be able to get back what we had or he really is tired of working with me. I'm afraid I won't be able to trust him again.

All of that said, all of the anger aside, he did what was right by talking about hospitalization. In retrospect, I was not thinking clearly, at all. By doing what he did, he got me out of my head enough to take steps so I didn't end up in the hospital and so I will be safe. How do we recover from this? How do we repair our relationship? Is it even worth trying?