Nothing could replace the love from your children or your family, but you do have us here. It won't fill the void, and I don't think that we could ever come close, but it is something and we are here for you as much as we can.

My family is hurting right now and I know I've caused their pain and I'm having trouble accepting/dealing with that. I'm having trouble accepting that at least my sister, is preferring to be away from me and I'm going to have to accept that. I'm still angry at them, but I'm also angry with myself because I caused their pain and I can't seem to undo the damage.

I'm slowly thinking of this as when a couple divorces - sometimes - family must stay away from one another in order to be healthy - I absolutely can feel, like you, your desire to have someone near - I so wish I had that with my family right now. But, I do feel a comfort that I can come here and I actually don't feel rejected (even if a post doesn't get a reply sometimes.

I agree with AzulOscuro in that comment - it's horribly painful to want someone close and they won't get close. But, I'm not even going to try to say that my pain is similar to yours because I have no children (that part I don't know), but I know a little. I know you coming here is a great thing and I hope you do find even a little comfort that you do have a LOT of people here who do support you. We're all walking similar paths. And, hopefully we can all help one another on the right path too....and we'll stumble and some of us fall, but we'll help each other back up again,....I really believe that.

Bean