Hey guys it's been a while. Been doing ehhhhh. I have had a relapse. In the middle of the relapse my staff (I'm in supportive apts. program) decided that I am going to no longer see my T, and am going to a day program instead. (Basically six classes of group therapy with different leaders). I didn't even get to say goodbye to my T. I miss her so much. I don't even have an email for her, and to call and leave a twenty minute voicemail is just not a valid option.

I love the day program, it IS helping me, but there are issues i need to talk to my T, or a private T about, however the program doesn't allow that. I never got to discuss or work out my issues with how I sexualize every father figure in my life. And I can't in the day program because one of the leaders and I are close and I see him as a father figure and so I sexualize him as well. And the place is so full of drama and gossipers there's no way it wouldn't get back to him.

How am I EVER going to work this out now? Why did I waste my time in therapy?!