writing for me is usually the best route for me . but I remember how horrible I felt when I wrote about this dream I had and she read about it . I got so mixed up in my head about reality and memories and felt horrible . I swore I would never put myself or my T in that situation again . im not saying she was unable to handle it she was great . it was me who was unable to handle it . I wonder if this is why I cant seem to write about it . I know she said that she hopes I will bring my T journal back again. I have but I have not written anything in it yet.