Thanks bipolar.. I did get through it, I just took one of my sleeping pills and went to sleep instead. I will look at that list right now just to have them on my mind.

And it's not Direction, it's someone else that I've had this back and forth relationship with for years.. it's very unhealthy for me mentally, but I can't seem to stop it.. which is part of the reason I want to get into a relationship with someone else, because when I do, this other person becomes a much significant part of my life.