(((SP))) I know I've been quiet for several days. I've logged in a few times but haven't stayed online long enough to do write anything.

Sorry you needed stitches. Things are difficult to deal with sometimes. Now especially. With all that is going on, your "resilience" is way down, so it's hard, if not impossible, to stay strong. I've been doing that too, it comes out differently for me, but essentially it the same kind of situation.
It's not a failure.
I think of it as your brain trying to stop or re-direct your thoughts from one thing that you have no control over, to something that you do have control over. Not sure if that makes any sense or if that's even true for you. It's just how it works for me and I can only speak from my experience.