Sorry i haven't been around much lately but my computer is lucky to stay online longer than 5 minutes, and i've been pretty busy because my boyfriend has been really ill the last 8 days or so and so i've been going round to see him alot.
I really am not good around ill people at all...i want to help and know what to say but instead i just get in the way and it's really really getting to me, every night i've come back from his feeling like a failure.
I didn't go tonight, because i felt bad today and so i thought i'd just be safer to stay at home and bury myself in school work. But he's said that he's feeling REALLY bad tonight and now i feel really really guilty for not going over and its just made the urges to cut so much more intense. I don't know what to do because he's the only person i'd tell how i'm feeling anyway and he's not gonna wanna hear my worthless problems when he's ill..is he?



Claire