(((Midnite))) I'm sorry you're hurting so badly. There's no easy answer here. It would be good if you could leave her alone but in the throws of despair I know that's not easy to do. Are you feeling manic? I ask because I'm bipolar too. Do you have anything prescribed for anxiety? It would at least help with your impulse control. I know this so very painful for you. I've been through it myself recently. You have got to find it in yourself to give her space and time to think. Perhaps take her number out of your cell, erase her email, stay away from areas you've been together as they may trigger you. Anything to slow you down. Be prepared she may not want to continue in the relationship. Make a list of what you truly desire in a relationship. Did she fulfill these criteria. Did she truly make you happy or are you fearing being alone? It's very natural if you fear being alone. I do. Best wishes friend. I've prayed for you. I hope you don't mind!!!