I'm sorry that so many mean things happened to you, and I hope getting it out helped. I agree with it may be time to make a list of the happiest moments.

I think a lot of people don't fit in during our school years. The film director John Waters once told me that he thought there was something [i]wrong{/i] with people who peak in high school -- you know, the football jock who never gets over his fame and is still talking about it when he's 50, the captain of the cheerleading squad who still dresses like a teenager when she's a grandmother and hasn't gotten over herself.

You will create your wholeness and inner harmony, Inny. I know it, and I hope you do, too.