It's not that I necessarily want to know everything. But I am in a place where my education as left me so far behind in comparison to a good portion of people. it is not necessarily justhe the knowledge that I want, I want to have a framework to work from that allows me to learn . I have started doing what you suggested I do awhile back. And i have made a little progress. but it has also been in a time of my worst depression. And it is beginning to feel like a fools errand and that I am so fundamentally idiotic, that I give up to easily. I am also on seroquel which has rendered me even more useless. I can hardly get through any studying. It is difficult enough to do basic cognitive tasks. Thank You For Your Suggestions And Encouragement. I will try to keep that in mind.