Thats tough. I constantly feel stuck what helped me in hard times is to try to separate my disease from who I am. It sounds silly but constantly reminding myself that I am good person that deserves to be cared and loved for helps me be ok just being me and in my experience that is hardest part of being bipolar. That type of self affirmation taught me a lot when I don't believe those words, that my disease kicking the **** out of me.