I'm in therapy for marriage issues, but that was only the issue that brought me there. I should have started years ago. I was born to a 16 year old mom, don't know my dad, mom was distant (her age, I'm sure), she married a man who was abusive with me and his two kids. I don't need to go into details and trigger anyone, but he was a bad man. I grew up pretty screwed up. Also CSA, former cutter, former suicide attempt, etc etc. So my REAL issues stem from my childhood, and my low self worth.

You're right, I don't feel worth, like I deserve it. I felt cared about, supported, validated. Being self conscious when I cry, she made me feel like I wasn't being judged, but accepted my tears. Her energy was very calming. Now all I hear in my head is "I wont' be sitting by you anymore," and even though she says it's not, I feel like I did or said something wrong. I have had a lifetime of people taking things away from me...and I felt so safe with her, until she, too, took something away. Ugh. HOpe I answered your questions.