Thanks everybody. AllHeart, I don't take offense to anything you say. I know my T is not perfect, no one is perfect.... but I do wish she'd open up enough to just see that how she handled it was wrong. I really believe I'm right, here! And I don't typically fight for what I know is right. I was here. I told her it was TRAUMATIC for me, how she handled this. She didn't apologize for what she did at all, yet she apologized for how I felt about it, which made me feel worse. Like the way I feel is not right? I nearly did discontinue working with her...and I'm still on the fence, but I wanted be strong enough to follow through the aftermath...and see if I get feeling better about it. I've been avoiding topics and fighting not to cry, so I'm sure once I get to those difficult topics again, and dissociate (which is one reason she'd come over...to help me ground myself), or fall apart in tears, I will really feel the effects. If I'm strong enough, I will stay and work through it. If I'm not, I'm done. I know I have attachment issues also, and this stuff makes therapy even more difficult. Because of this, I know I wouldn't seek out another T. I have lived 40 years without therapy....I can just accept who I am and live 40 more years without. Because therapy itself has caused more hurt, more turmoil, because of this situation, and just the attachment I suffer with. I don't want to get attached to anyone else. In fact, I've noticed, since this whole thing happened with my T, I've been pushing people away IRL. Yes, I've told her this. Just last week at my last session. The topic did actually come up, and I told her I feel guilty about it. She said "how could you feel guilty about something I did, you didn't do?" Well, because that's just ME.