Granite, don't beat yourself up about it. I'm sure you're doing fine. That's the thing about being a parent - If you don't feel like you're screwing up at least some of the time you're doing it wrong

Now my little monster is throwing up all over the place because he has a snotty cold and the sneezing and coughing is setting off his reflux, which is in turn setting off his tendency towards dehydration. So I have him on continuous fluids through his feeding pump. Earlier he peed on the floor because he's attached to the pump and can't bring himself to the bathroom, and I forgot to bring him.
And the seven year old is sulking in her room because I followed through with a threat and docked her allowance.
Parenthood, I tell ya... All the sensible people in the world are childfree