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Originally Posted by MMBean
Nothing could replace the love from your children or your family, but you do have us here. It won't fill the void, and I don't think that we could ever come close, but it is something and we are here for you as much as we can.
My family is hurting right now and I know I've caused their pain and I'm having trouble accepting/dealing with that. I'm having trouble accepting that at least my sister, is preferring to be away from me and I'm going to have to accept that. I'm still angry at them, but I'm also angry with myself because I caused their pain and I can't seem to undo the damage.
I'm slowly thinking of this as when a couple divorces - sometimes - family must stay away from one another in order to be healthy - I absolutely can feel, like you, your desire to have someone near - I so wish I had that with my family right now. But, I do feel a comfort that I can come here and I actually don't feel rejected (even if a post doesn't get a reply sometimes. 
I agree with AzulOscuro in that comment - it's horribly painful to want someone close and they won't get close. But, I'm not even going to try to say that my pain is similar to yours because I have no children (that part I don't know), but I know a little. I know you coming here is a great thing and I hope you do find even a little comfort that you do have a LOT of people here who do support you. We're all walking similar paths. And, hopefully we can all help one another on the right path too....and we'll stumble and some of us fall, but we'll help each other back up again,....I really believe that.
Bean |
Thanks for your input and your empathy. I always wondered about people who chose not to have children when they were younger - did they regret it when they got older and feeling lonely?
Now in my case I think as much as you might regret it - It can't be as bad to miss kids so bad that you never knew - that are just in your imagination I guess - as opposed to having kids and losing them; especially when it sort of comes out of the blue.
But my "grandma lady" - not my real grandma but every bit as special - she was grandma to my kids too - and she lost her husband and all her kids before she passed away but she was a determined person who just kept going - I admire that - glad that in the end she had a granddaughter who really came thru for her and she went to live in Iowa near her and she was taken good care of - as she deserved to be because in her lifetime she had people living with her off and on - her cantankerous old dad who would pinch you and not for fun either - her granddaughter - her sister and brother - had to say who else. I have found out a lot more about her while doing my ancestry research i added her to my list. She was an amazing woman who worked hard all her life but never had much to show for it - I think her husband drank too much and that is one reason she had so little - but she certainly made a huge difference in a lot of people's lives. She was the nicest woman I ever knew, that's the honest truth. -