Hey man, I hear you. I went through this for years, especially on the end of an up period. It scared me too as well as others around me. As quickly as I got angry, it went away and I felt awful about it. Then week or so later, I'd do the same thing again. I have all sorts of triggers. I could not control myself no matter how hard I tried. I tried for years to do it on my own.
I went to see a psychiatrist at the beginning of this year and told him I was pissed at everyone, stranger or not. I think that was a red flag for him.
I have a lot of other issues that need to address with my mixed state but the rage and anger seems to have evened out. Talk to a professional about it - I take Depakote. Pax.
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