Thank you for taking a look at what went wrong in our last session but I don't understand. I overstepped my boundary by asking a mutual acquaintance for a general description of what your H looked like. I immed confessed on the phone, saying I found out he was "tall and nice." You laffed and said he is.

But then in session you teased me about "all the questions and grilling for info" and then when I was triggered out of my mind, said you were only joking - you weren't upset.

You said the bad mojo between us was bc you violated boundary: giving me access to someone who knows u outside office. And then said my boundary was weak for being upset by your reaction and that it was ok to ask the question. But I was triggered bc I was ashamed at what I had done. How can it be ok to ask someone else about your husband?? Why don't you think what I did was inexcusable? You said it's ok for me to have a voice, but I don't see how that's so if I trample other people. How can I return to face you? I feel like there is no hole deep and dark enuff for me. I deserve to be terminated. But please don't.