I am great at taking care of myself. I have, ever since the age of 18, looked after myself, and gotten to a point of financial security and independence.

I am comfortable (with money), secure in my job, in good physical health, in a good state of physical fitness, and have good looks (been told by many).

But, I am clueless when it comes to initiating conversations with women. I've never been good at this, and my track record with women proves this.

So, I go about my routine, work, exercise, cooking, cleaning, eating, sleeping, feeling lonely, etc. Day after night after day after night.

I have been in one serious relationship of any significant length - 8 months ... this was 7 years ago. We practically lived together, were in love, and did everything together.

Everyday at work, I looked forward to the end of the work day and coming home to my sweetie in the kitchen and putting my arms around her. And, to lying next to her in bed, feeling her warmth, and waking up next to her. And, to being there for her in every way, and making her smile.

Without this kind of intimacy, what's the friggin point ? I don't know how much longer I can carry on with my pointless routine. This summer might be my last on this Earth.